right now........

Right now I feel like I am in a hole....I don't really have anything to write about....well, I'm sure I do...I just don't want to. I just feel like whats the point.....My mother in law is here....and so is all of her emotional baggage....the manipulation, the guilt....I have never met a parent who is jealous of their children....I just for the life of me cant wrap my brain around it....Things at work are actually going OK.. I am still not putting in enough effort....I could and should be doing more....I need to market more....try all avenues of marketing....I am however going to be writing more business very soon....hopefully the first of many tattoo shops on Sunday....and I have a restaurant I am writing on Thursday....I still have the most wonderful wife in the world...It pains me to see the change in her while her mom is here.....I don't even know if talking with her will do any good.....I am just thankful for the Lord, and how he has and will continue to work in my wife's life.....She is amazing.. I am done for tonight...I am going to take an anxiety pill, and try and figure out my schedule for the next week.. I need to stay in front of people that I can help....and also need to make some money....I need to find a mentor....someone that can act as kind of a guide....a guide that has been through what I am going through...someone that can keep reminding me that it all does get better....I am going to pray right now.....Thank you Jesus....I prayed, and not more than 2 seconds later my Uncle called....He has been in sales his whole career and an incredibly successful career....I got 10 min. of incredible advice, and at the end he told me he loved me.....I don't think I have ever heard him say that....So Lord Thank you !! and please bless Jim....Thank you for the perfect timing...I love you Lord!!