I have made it.

Well, after a 2 day train trip across the country, and what seems like a lifetime away from my family, I made it to Wisconsin. I have been here for 6 days, and I am missing my wife and kids like never before. I have been mostly busy  driving around with my Mother in law looking for work, and trips to the library to use the wifi, (because why would she have it.... she is 63 and Grandpa is 94..) to look for work online. I have seen the house we are buying, and it is pretty incredible. It was built in the early 1920's for a doctor and his family. Lots of built ins, and dark hard wood everywhere. And the town we are in (Manitowoc) is a really neat place. It is just hard to be here without my wife and kids. They are my life. It is sad really how much I miss them. Like to the point of tears. I think the worst part is the thoughts....the stupid adolecent thoughts of "does she really love me enough not to break my trust" or "what is she doing when she is not on the phone with me" I dont know why these thoughts are there, or why after 19 years of marrage the are there. I know I am doing this for the greater good. Getting things in place over here, so we can all come back to a house, and a job for me. It is still hard. My baby girl is 4, and I have never gone a single day without seeing her. Same with my 6 year old son. I think I am focusing on the wrong things. I should be focusing on the things in my life I want to change before everyone gets here. I should be taking the time to read, and learn the things I want to. To really work on my character flaws that they dont like. To be a better husband, father, and person...well, for now this is it. I am going to go do something. I am not sure what....but I hope its not just sit and wait until I video chat with the family. I hope it involves bettering my self. I need to prepare for my interview on Monday. I am going to research the company, and bring some questions into the interview. until next time.....